Dear Baby,
You are going to be here any day now. This is most likely the reason I am up at 5:30 AM on a holiday instead of relishing the few days of uninterrupted sleep I have left. But, I wanted you to know some things….
It has been great having you around these last ten months keeping me company. It has all been such a weird, cool ride for me and your daddy and we can’t wait to meet you. Since you’ve been around I’ve had your back and that will never change. From feeding and cuddling you, all the way until you need help moving into your first, new apartment. I’m here for you, okay? We may not always see eye to eye like we will when we first meet, but I will always love you more than anything. We decided to make you, and that is when we decided to have your back for your entire life.
I had a dream about you last night. I haven’t had many but this one is the one that woke me up out of a sound slumber and wouldn’t let me fall back to sleep. In this dream you were very tiny, the size of my thumbnail probably. I was trying to change you on your regular changing table but I was afraid I was going to lose you. You kept talking to me, trying to tell me where your knees were and how to change you. Ridiculous, but I’m sure there has to be some sort of hidden meaning behind it, like maybe, I’m going to struggle, but you are going to help me? Let’s hope that’s it and not that you are going to shrink into an inch high private eye.
You are pretty big right now, the size of a watermelon. Everyday me and your daddy keep saying “this is it” this is the day. Well, lets hope this isn’t the day because your dad is going to play some golf and it’s just me and you kid. Technically, you are due on Thursday May 31st and we all have bets on when you will come. We all can’t wait. Your Nana, Papa, Grandma, Grandpa and all of your Aunts and Uncles and cousins too. You also have a dog brother, Vinny. Not sure if he’s quite as excited about your arrival as the rest of us, but I’m sure he will fall in love with you just like we all have.
I will be writing to you many times here, this blog is pretty much for you. The next time I write, hopefully, I will be describing to you when, and how you came into this world. Until then my little baby….I love you.
In Anticipation,
Mommy
***this morning before your daddy left for golf he said, “this is like Christmas, except you don’t know when Christmas is coming…you just know it’s coming soon.”***
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